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Learning as I go!

Hi there, we're almost at the halfway mark... 3 of 8 treatments officially under my belt, and 75% done with AC treatment! I arrived at MSKCC on Atlantic Ave on Monday with Greg and my parents, and my brother Jeremy arrived at the center directly from the red eye from LA and surprised me with his new solidarity chop:


What good brothers I have*! A third nurse, Rashida, administered my treatment. She was a Speedy Gonzalez, so we didn't even have time to have a round of Sushi Go! After treatment, we made our way back home, and I ate my post-chemo bagel upstairs at my parents.

Keeping my fingers crossed this week, but this was the least annoying treatment so far. Because I get anti-nausea meds via IV during chemo, I didn't think I could take my on-demand anti-nausea meds on the same day of treatment. But my oncologist cleared that up for me, and I took my meds right around when I usually start to feel sick to my stomach, which made Monday much more tolerable.

When I got back to my apartment, I was so shocked to find a second post-chemo surprise from my girlfriends: the most lovely assortment of summer gear, with apparently a few more items on the way! There is a beautifully curated set of vintage and new items, all of which fits under the umbrella of what Katie has coined as "shielded chic":


In no particular order- Sami, Anna Laura, Bekah, Marina, Elizabeth, Allix, Martina, Emily, Brigid, Nic G., Marilu, Nicole B., Katie, Lauren and Elana- THANK YOU. You all have made me feel so damn special throughout this process. I am so lucky to have such a fierce and supportive network of ladies in my life- your love means the world to me, and you really made me feel like my true self in these kaftans: 


The other kaftan is also amazing, though I do have some competition from my husband in terms of who wears it best: 

I may have the Sephardic genes, but Greg has truly embraced this look. 

And another thank you to Mrs. Grant, who is not only constantly complimenting me on this blog, but she also sent me an arsenal of coconut and Fiji water so I can stay hydrated post-treatment. I love you, Grant fam! And a forever thank you to my mom, who has made sure that my laundry is done and that I eat balanced and deliciously post-treatment. 

As for yesterday and today, despite the usual tiredness, I've been feeling pretty okay! I am also super happy to go into a long weekend of hanging with friends and fam, including my brother, dad, and my friend Louisa, who will be visiting from Delhi via DC, where she's moving next month! It'll be great to have her here and even better to have her closer in the coming months. 

For now, wishing you all a happy Fourth of July weekend! I hope it's filled with plenty of hot dogs and happiness. 

*Apparently Jon said he can't buzz his hair because "it's his bread and butter." He's still a good brother anyways. 

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